WOW – the holidays are over…..New Year’s Celebrations have died down…and now going back to everyday life is upon everyone!!! School does not start up here until next week..so the daughter is still off just lazing around the house…I really wanted her to redo her room but that has been an unending losing battle! She is 18 and even tho she still lives under “our roof” her room is her business…and if she likes the mess then more power to her I guess.
We have really been up to NOTHING!!! I am pursuing my goals in art…creating something everyday and taking a photo a day project….check out my art blog (FINDING MYSELF) for that info…but have gotten nothing else accomplished. The weather took us for a loop this week….we went from the high 70’s and 80’s to 28 degrees today. OMG can you say we do not even own a coat!!!! I love the cold weather because I can breathe so much more easier….having to fight a lung disease – the cool weather brings comfort…but no coats…and we do not have central heating (our central AC/heat stopped working when we first moved in and never had the money to fix it–a couple of thousand dollars does not come easy). But tomorrow the weather should be warming up to the 60’s which is nice and cool for us yet not cold enough for coats.
All is well with the boys…have heard from them pretty much every day (which is wonderful). One son is getting out of the army (I think I mentioned that already) he has his time in…he is just not army material…so now he will pursue other ventures. I think he is happy it is over for him. The son in Japan has been homesick over the holidays…but he is good…and being able to stay in touch with us has helped him get through the down times…but he is busy so that helps too!
Besides my goals for the new year – I have chosen to find a word and live the word..use it as my personal motto – my mantra…it is PEACE!!! I have been using that word when I sign off or when I end a letter or something…but this year I want to truly make a conscious effort to live the word…breathe the word….have that PEACE surround my life and in my life…at least that is my goal!!!
I think I have caught up on news…nothing new…but a New Year to try New Things and Start Fresh. Do you have any goals for the New Year? If you wanted – what word would you chose to be your mantra?
Until Next Time ….. PEACE!!!
Finally I have a few moments to catch up on a few things…First the weather – WOW finally some fall like weather has finally hit the sunshine state. I am loving it! I can actually breathe in some fresh air without choking. It has been wonderful the last few days…I have actually been sitting outside just soaking it all in!
Hurricane Noel skirted our coast but THANK GOD for the low front that was coming in the opposite direction and forced Noel to go away..unfortunately the east coast beaches took a beating with high surfs and more beach erosion has occured, but at least NO HURRICANES…it has been the most mildest season I have ever seen in the 20 or so years I have lived here.
I have really been doing some major blog hopping and researching on creating. Almost seems you would not have to research it but you do…to find things that inspire you. I think that is what spoiled things for me…lack of inspiration…I wanted to see what inspires others to create…see what they create..what they use..the thought process…I could go on and on..but I don’t want to bore anyone..suffice it to say…I have found things to inspire me..words, pictures, art, materials…things that once again..make me want to create. So I have been working on my art blog quite a bit…researching places to sell art at, “getting the word out” sort of speak. It really has been a labor of love for me. My head has not been so obsessed with depression and feeling trapped inside myself (now my battle with severe depression has been an on going thing for several years due to finding out just how sick I am). Being depressed took away my joy…but creating is bringing it back..all this research is bringing it back, thinking of new ways to be creative is bringing it back, meeting new people in the “art” community is bringing it back…..sharing my art with other people (actually letting others seeing it) is bringing it back. Just playing with supplies, throwing things together is bringing it back. I guess you get the point. You would think (if you have never suffered from depression) that it would be so easy to find things that give you joy like your significant other, your kids, your job, your fur babies, your possessions…but it does not. It does not mean that you love your family any less or that they are not important in your life…it is just that the joy disappears from your thought process from deep within your heart it is almost impossible to make yourself feel it or experience it. Strange I am sure, to most people but not to me! I am far from being “cured” or out of that depressive state…but I can feel that joy slowly warm my heart, I can see the light in my head in that very dark tunnel in a far off distance. It feels good! So that is why feeling creative is so important to me. I have uploaded some pics of some of my work and such so please feel free to go check it out for yourself: FINDING MYSELF.
So now you know what I have been doing…as for the daughter – finally the first quarter of school is over..only 3 more to go…this also means report card time. To be honest…one grade needs improvement…she is also very confused as to why she received that grade because her main project was awesome! (she will have to speak with the teacher on monday) but she also received 3 “A’s” which I am thrilled about. She is a happy camper and it showed her that all the work was truly worth it…it was a great boost to her self esteem which is always a good thing! I am very proud of her!
The night before last my son who is stationed at Ft Campbell Kentucky IM’d me and we video chatted for a couple of hours…that was so much fun..he has a wonderful sense of humor….he could always make me laugh about anything! He has received confirmation that his vacation has been approved..so he will be home from December 18th to January 1st., so I am very excited..it will be wonderful to have him home for the holidays! My other son is still out in field…he has been out in the field for over 10 days now and will come in sometime after tomorrow…then he gets ready for graduation from AIT and then home to see us for a few days…then off to Japan.
It has been a full week with nice temps…we did have rain on and off for 4 or 5 days but we needed it since the state’s water table is 24 inches below critical. But this weekend is absolutely lovely…so I think I will go and sit out some more! Thanks for stopping by.
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Well today we made the reservation for our son to fly back to Arizona once his visit here is over…he will have to “hang out” at the airport in Arizona for about 8 hours or so before flying out to Japan. Apparently the army has a army representative there at the airport where he will arrange sleeping quarters at or near the airport so that soldiers can get some sleep and rest up before continuing on with their trip. So all we have to do is get him there. He should start driving here around November 9th. He is driving here because he is bringing his car home..the army suggested that he store the car somewhere in california but that is useless because they do not start it for you…or maintain the car..if the car is here..then we will start it up a couple of times a week…drive it around the block..and make sure it stays safe. Right now he has to return to Arizona on November 17th. His flight to Japan leaves out very early on the 18th. So we booked his flight from Orlando.
The weather here is still too warm for my liking…I realize that Florida does not have your normal four seasons….but it is already the end of October and still the temps are in the 90’s and the humidity has not gone down enough. We are also 24 inches below in our rainfall…so it is going to be a very dry and crispy “winter” which usually leads to a lot of sporadic fires. I am really shocked at the fires in California. That is just so devastating…my prayers are with all those families…
I am still trying to figure out what I want to do with my blogs and how to organize everything. I already have a personal blog at aol…but it is EXTREMELY limited on what you can have in your blog..basic pictures and text and some widgets from technorati..but nothing major. It also seems that people outside of the aol community cannot leave comments if they do not have an aol screen name…which I think just limits it more. I do like wordpress so far. It has taken some getting used to ..but I like it. I am just trying to figure out in which direction to go.
Well if I come up with any more interesting thoughts (cough cough!!) I shall return!