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THE NEW YEAR IS JUST ABOUT HERE

WOW – the end of the year is just about here…truly – the year has flown by for me. I cannot believe it is going to be 2008…this just blows my mind for some reason!
Anyway – Christmas was absolutely BEAUTIFUL here. I think everyone was spoiled. Allen received cordless tools from Crystalyn and I which he has been dreaming about for quite some time. He also received all kinds of other little tidbits…and loved it all. Crystalyn was quite spoiled to say the least…a digital camera, a camcorder, several books of fantasy that you touch them and they have different textures and stories about certain subjects and hidden compartments…they are very cool….,beautiful jewelry, beautiful wand (which she has always wanted) (she is very much into fantasy things), and other assorted goodies that brought a huge smile on her face for hours and hours….(patting myself on the back for doing good this year)…and I was definitely spoiled…received a collector’s Gators helmet (love it), angel stuffies galore, and my daughter bought me a star….there is a star registry that she bought a star and named it Joshua Jaye…(I know it is all promotional and such because no one can own a star) but it is the ultimate in a gift..along with the star – she bought me this high tech telescope that hooks up to your computer and you can take pictures of the stars and upload them and print them out…WOW…finally watching and taking pictures of the stars – how so very AWESOME…I just cried…it is the best of the best. My girlfriend sent me a package loaded with fantastic goodies…I was just stunned….just amazing!!! It was all just so perfect!

So Christmas was beautiful….we ate and ate and ate – we had a huge Turkey dinner with all the trimmings just like Thanksgiving….it was WONDERFUL…we were so stuff, we could not move for hours…(that is the best kind of meal). Both our sons called so that was wonderful.

We have been just relaxing ever since…enjoying the stress free time together and vegging out. I have, of course, been watching every football game (including bowl games) that I can possible find. It really has been a fun football season.

I have continued to create at my art blog (FINDING MYSELF). I think I am officially hooked on creating Kaleidoscope images…it has been colorful, and has given me a lot of instant gratification which is always good.

Now our celebration is not over…I also celebrate “Three Kings Day”. I was brought up celebrating it…putting a box of hay and a bowl of water under your bed on the night of the fifth of January to feed the camels of the Three Wise Men on their Journey to see the Baby Jesus. So we continually send out any more cards to those that we may have forgotten or not had time – we keep sending out packages to family and friends that we were not around with during the holidays and such. After the 6th is when all the decorations come down and life moves on. We also have a special meal on the 6th…usually a pork roast and lots of stuffies to go with that. I just love Tradition.

I think I have pretty much caught up on news…If I do not get a chance to get an entry done before hand…I want to wish you all a very BLESSED and PROSPEROUS New Year.
My Wish For You For 2008:

May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet of $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires and may happiness slap you across the face and may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had forget your home address! In simple words …………

May 2008 be the best year of your life!!! Until 2009, 2010, 2011..

Until Next Time …… PEACE!!!

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CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HERE AND MORE

WOW – busy busy busy….Time has just flown by…I just cannot figure out where I lost track of it all. I will say..I have finished ALL my Christmas shopping…I have about 5 cards left to send out – but they might be late…they are all out of country.

Also – my son who is stationed in Kentucky canceled (at the last minute) his trip home. It just about broke my heart.  My hunnie is mad because this is typical of AJ – very impulsive and does these things on a constant basis…especially when it is NOT his money that is being wasted. I am just disappointed…I really thought he would come…but I was wrong. So it will be the three of us…and that is BEAUTIFUL… we have a HUGE turkey dinner planned with all kinds of good stuffies with it and gifts galore.

So just to add a bit more stress to my week…my daughter tells me that she needs the payment and pictures and letter for her dedication page for the yearbook by today…(this was two days ago). So I had to get a dozen prints sent off to walgreens (took 4 hours of picking and choosing) for overnight printing and had to get a money order for $275 for the full page dedication (she always wanted a full page) (with that money it better be outlined in gold – LOL) and I had to write a dedication letter to her about “whatever” I felt motivated to write.. So I thought I would share my letter here…let me know what you think:

Crystalyn Rose 
“I hope your dreams take you to the corners of your smiles, to the highest of your hopes, to the windows of your opportunities, and to the most special places your heart has ever known.”
We never knew so much LOVE & JOY could come from having a child.
Your sense of humor and spunk for life and creative thinking amazes us…and your compassion for others makes your heart bigger then most adults we know.
Our pride in you grows daily as does of course our LOVE..if that is at all possible.
You have strong convictions and will fight tooth and nail for your family and friends and those that you care about.
You have a massive soft spot for animals-which shows the depth of your kindness..and you speak your mind no matter what the circumstances or consequences. Showing that you stand strong in your faith and beliefs – that you are a leader and not a follower.
We are very proud to say you are our daughter..and although you are spreading those beautiful wings of yours and going out to claim your life…We wish for you the VERY best of all that life has to offer..
CONGRATULATIONS on your first step to life’s opportunities..
Smile always to show kindness to others
Laugh to enjoy the fullness of life
Love to always be filled with unending joy
Dream to strive for the best of everything…
Follow your Dreams – Believe in Yourself – Be You
We Wish You Enough….!!!
Mom-Dad-Eric-Allen
 She thought it was awesome – so that is all I care about. This morning she turned everything in so she is happy and that makes me happy!!! Now we still have to pick out invitations and memory goodies and measurements for caps and gowns. (this is ALL more money) I know I keep mentioning money but it just seems that companies take every opportunity to charge you unbelievable prices for some crazy stuff. She did FINALLY get her senior portraits back and her class picture (almost 900 students in one picture) they do a panoramic picture of the class – you do have to LOOK to see where your kid is…that was another 40 dollars.(just the class pic) Her portraits were $215.
We never got our lights on the house done…just too much for us right now. But I did manage to get a picture of the little tree by our front door….my camera’s battery was running low so the lights got swirled in the picture…but here it is:
I think it has a cool effect….so that is our Christmas tree…everyone who has seen it LOVES the idea and have claimed they are going to do that also…LOL. I think I have started a trend….LOL .
 For now I think I have updated all that has happened. I have really had a WONDERFUL holiday season so far…some BEAUTIFUL people who I have met through blog land have sent me things that made my heart cry – they have touched me so much…I have some surprises for them…(might be late) but I hope they love it nonetheless. I have continued every day to blog and create in my art blog (FINDING MYSELF)- which for me is BRAVE because it is putting myself out there for all to see and judge…and so far – KINDNESS AND LOVE is what I have been shown….I AM BLESSED.
If I am unable to blog here before Christmas – I wish you ALL a very BEAUTIFUL and BLESSED Christmas filled with JOYHAPPINESS – and LOVE!!!
Remember to HUG those you LOVE!!!

GIVE AWAY AT 5 MINUTES FOR MOM

Here is a GREAT GIVE AWAY at “5 Minutes For Mom” site.
They are always having contests and this one is wonderful – and would make
an awesome Christmas gift for someone or even yourself!!!
Here is a bit of the blurb..”Win an Insignia® Shelf System

Load up your iPod or MP3 player with Christmas music and start rocking around the Christmas tree!
Insignia® has an affordable shelf system complete with iPod dock, USB port, CD/DVD player, digital AM/FM, HD radio and more and we are giving one away!”

So go on over to “5 Minutes For Mom Site” and enter to win. You can also check out
Best Buys  yourself to buy one for Christmas. (It is on sale right now)

Good Luck Everyone!!!

MEET JOSHUA JAYE

Jana over at JANA’S JOURNEY had this wonderful idea to remember this week our
loved ones that we have lost – to celebrate their memory during this holiday season…I
thought this was an awesome idea..because there is NOT a day that goes by that I do not think of or miss Joshua – they say that time heals…it does in so many ways – but the void in my heart can never be repaired, can never be filled…and my LOVE for him will never wither away. God – I MISS HIM!!!

The story below I wrote over 10 years ago that I have posted on one of my webpages..I have never retouched it -rewrote it – nothing…it is how I felt at the time and I will not change anything about it…I am sure there are questions about some things…feel free to ask away…I will be writing more about Joshua this week…but for today I wanted you to hear his story!!! Here is Joshua:

JOSHUA’S STORY
It was August 1989…I went for a doctor’s visit because
I had gotten a nasty cough and since I was having a
terrible time with my pregnancy, the doctors wanted
to see me. I was 5 months pregnant with twins.
I remember the JOY and THRILL I felt when I
found out I was pregnant and to find out it was
Twins was a double Blessing.
I went to meet with the specialist at the Hospital
since that is where he was doing rounds.
Well after a quick examination and lots of talk among
the doctors… they said I was not going anywhere.
I was in Labor. I had started to dilate.
The greatest fear ran thru my mind…Terrified that I would
lose my babies … my nightmare began.
To make the longest month of my life short…after one week
of being in the hospital my gall bladder had
become so diseased that they had to perform
emergency surgery to remove it.
During my stay they also found out that
thru medication that I was allergic to
I had contracted Hepatitis.
Also some other medication that the doctors
had given me I was soooo allergic to
that I had experienced several mini heart attacks.
So many other things went wrong…no one knew if
I would survive nor the twins.
Well after fighting for a month to avoid delivering early
the fight was over.
The decision was made on September 18,1989
to let me deliver at 6 months.
At 4:45am on September 19,1989
I delivered twins by c-section because our
little girl was breach.
The first out was Joshua, 1.8 pounds
So small so peaceful so perfect in my eyes.
Then came Crystalyn, 2.0 pounds
So small and full of spunk so perfect in my eyes.
They spent the next 2 months in the
hospital…they were not allowed to
come home until they were at least 4 pounds in weight.
It seemed like everyday there was another
crisis with the babies.
Every night we went to spend hours just looking
at them.
They were fighters though..nothing could keep them down.
We brought them home November 1st 1989.
A true day of celebration.
I did not care that they had to come home
on heart monitors.
Just as long as I finally got to bring them home.
Every Friday we would have to go to the doctors.
The best Christmas present I ever had was
having them home.
The alarms would go off….and every time I would
age…the sound became my worst nightmare.
In February 1990…Joshua was having a tough time
too many alarms and his breathing was
straining him.
After a couple of days we got to bring him home.
Well Joshua really never regained his strength.
On the morning of March 8 1990 I woke up to
Joshua crying really hard…which was unusual for him.
I picked him up and we walked the house
looking for his pacifier.
I told him I was going to put him down in bed so that
I could get his bottle.
Then we had to leave to go to the doctor’s again.
I put him down…picked up his bottle from the kitchen
and when I returned to his room…he was blue.
I remember very little after that.
Started CPR…called 911
was rushed to the hospital by ambulance.
And 45 minutes later the doctors came in to tell me
he was gone. There was nothing that they could do.
I remember not being allowed to leave the hospital until
the coroner and some investigators got there.
I remember being very confused.
Life seem to go in very slow motion.
I do remember being told by the police and the coroner
that according to state law I am guilty in the death of my son
until thru an autopsy I could be proven innocent.
After being questioned for what seemed
for hours I was allowed to go home.
The priliminary autopsy proved that I was innocent.
The final autopsy that was given 2 months later
said that Joshua had died of S.I.D.S.
(Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)
Nothing will ever be the same for me.
Nothing could ever help me understand
how that could happen to my baby boy.
The one who fought all the odds, the one
whose spirit was so peaceful and so loving.
He was lost to such a mystery.
After that every time I looked in Crystalyn’s eyes
I could see Joshua.
Everything that I had for two..I now only needed for one.
I had wonderful friends who were there for me.
I know I would have never made it without them.
I really did not want to go on without Joshua.
He was the weakest of the two…but there was
something so special and different about him.
Then after a time period of being just numb..
I had realized that I still had a baby to care for.
Crystalyn I know was my only reason for living.
She made me want to wake up every morning.
To almost make up for lost time with Joshua.
I will forever miss Joshua.
There are just no words to describe the emptiness
and loss of him.

****Thanks for reading this far…HUG those you LOVE – No One Guarantees Tomorrow!

TRYING TO STAY AHEAD

I feel like I am doing and doing and doing but nothing is getting full accomplished.

I did manage to at least get my list all written out for Christmas cards (which for me is a big task-I always have to double and triple check that I have the most recent addresses for family and friends) but I still have not written out all my cards.

We do have the little tree up…with snowmen along the bottom..looks good but I am still looking for the topper and the tree skirt..(I thought they would be in the boxes marked Christmas stuff – but I am wrong). The lights on the house are still not up because Hunnie seems to be having the case of the lazies…that is ok but I just wish he had gotten them up first before coming down with the lazies..lol.

I did also manage to get my artwork printed out (for gifts) so that was good…now after sitting and pondering on them…I want to change some so I have to reorder some things.(I thought I was done – but I over think things too much).

I have totally bought for everyone…I am done…OKAY except for one son…Lord he is difficult to buy for and keeps claiming he does not want anything because we paid for his plane ticket home. So I am stuck there.

I am keeping up with my art work…really wanting to keep creating as long as the feeling is with me…because it is allowing me an outlet to just release stress and feel good about whatever. So since the beginning of November I have blogging every day with a creative piece in my art journal – check it out if you wish – FINDING MYSELF.

I have been keeping up with my groups that I run online – so this is a good thing.

I am so far behind in emails – I cannot see the daylight there – WOW email sure multiples when you are not looking!!!

 I have been lax in keeping up with my picture taking…but truly nothing has changed to take pictures of…I am still sitting outside every evening with my hunnie and enjoying the fire pit and the stars…I am still so amazed looking at the stars…(a personal obsession with me). It really has been nice to just sit in the quiet of the night and chat about whatever..seems to be a nice calming time for us both and I think has added to our relationship.

Well – I am going to try and relax without thinking about how far behind I am in some things…I hope everyone has finished up their christmas shopping and decorating…leave me a comment and let me know!!!

Until Next Time ….. PEACE!!!

 

CATCHING UP ON NEWS

I know I am so behind in keeping this blog updated….so much going on.
I do keep  my original blog  more frequently updated then this one…so if you ever want to see what is happening..here is my  other blog : ELLIE’S CRAZY LIFE

I have just finished participating in a month long challenge of creating art everyday in my art blog – FINDING MYSELF – that was a tremendous learning experience and something that I grew from. I have made some new friends and strengthened other friendships…I received some WONDERFUL support..especially from my friend Anke, whose kind words and encouragement really help motivate me and kept me going…if you have a moment – check out her blog called THE ARTIST IN ME – her work is fabulous!

My son did manage to make it home from Arizona to say Good-bye to us before being deployed out. He was only here for 3 and a half days…too short…of course I cried my eyes out when he left….I could feel my heart breaking…but the good news is we have heard from him on a regular basis. He is still adjusting to life there…and through our conversations I have compiled a list and shopped for things that I know he will appreciate. So This coming monday or tuesday at the latest we will be sending him a care package for Christmas…I just hope he gets it in time…I cannot tell you all yet what we have bought him because most of it is a surprise for him and I don’t want to take a chance of him reading any of my blogs and figuring out what we got him. I will say – he will be so SURPRISED and love it all!!!

My other son who is stationed at Ft Campbell -Kentucky, will definitely be home on December 14th. The ticket has been purchased and all the plans are finalized. It will be wonderful to have him home…AJ has this wonderful talent of making me laugh no matter what is going on. He has such a beautiful spirit about him..We have a few surprises for him too!!!!

Crystalyn never made it to my parents…the airfares were OUTRAGEOUS…it is more expensive to fly in state then fly to Europe….so she stayed home and we had a wonderfully peaceful  Thanksgiving full of so much delicious food (with leftovers that lasted 3 days after) She had a wonderful week off from school and got caught up on things she needed to do – so all in all it was quite successful. Now she only has 2 and a half weeks of school before Christmas break and then she is off for just over two weeks…so she will get to spend some great time with AJ and they can go off and do fun stuff together!

The weather,unfortunately here got warm again…this past week it has been in the 80’s. That kind of weather does not promote the festive holiday feel…but hopefully this coming week things will cool off….it really is too hot for this time of year here.

This weekend I am hoping to be done with my Christmas cards and I just have to print out two calendars that I made for my parents and my hunnie’s mom as Christmas presents to send to them. Then I should be done with the major stuff….This year we bought a 4-1/2 tree for outside our front door (artificial) instead of having a tree inside the house. We have 11 rotties who are way too active to have a tree inside…and I just wanted the outside to look nice.  Hopefully next weekend we will be done with anything outside decorations we are going to do. I just want the holidays to be calm and relaxing!!

I think I have caught up on all the news that is fit to print….May you all have a beautiful December…Until Next Time….PEACE!!